{November 21, 2010}   The next day

Well I’ve spent most of my day caring for my almost 4 year old and cleaning house.  I’ve used most of my energy for the day.  I tend to get tired faster than before.  At least I only have 2 days with students this week and then get a break for a couple of days.  Although, I need to clean on Wednesday.  I think I’m going to take Riley, my daughter, to daycare so I can get some stuff done.  I’m going to try to get a couple of Christmas presents on Wednesday while she’s at daycare, but because of having surgery I’m not going to be able to get much for her for Christmas.  It’s all about looking for the greatest deals for Christmas.  Hopefully I can find several things so it doesn’t look like Santa is being cheap or anything.  As I sit here typing and watch Christmas movies on TV I find myself needing to follow the theme of the movie on TV…”I must believe.”


{November 20, 2010}   Hello world!

It is amazing to me how we can go around thinking that life is great and then have something dumped on you like a ton of bricks.  Let me give you a little insight to me and why I’m starting this blog to begin with.  (I know ending the sentence with the word with is improper english..whatever.)  I live a very busy life!  Teaching choir, dance, yearbook, and general music classes, and not really sleeping, no, that’s what most people’s first question is when they are told what I do for a living.  I go along with my busy life just trying to survive.  I get up at 6:00ish, sometime 6:30 when I’m really tired, and usually don’t get in bed until 11:00 or 11:30 each night.  My “husband”, we are married but he really just wanted a 2nd mom I think, doesn’t help at all!  I don’t mean just in the kitchen or with the laundry, he doesn’t want to help even take care of our daughter, who by the way is about to be 4 and is pretty self-sufficent.  I spend most of my time taking care of her and the house when I’m not battling the ideals of a junior high mentality…did I mention I teach junior high school?  yes…7th & 8th graders…I know crazy.  Anyway, I’m insanely busy all the time.  By the way, I’m sick.  Not mentally or anything, but sick.  I have endometriosis in the first place…which if you know anyone that has this disease it’s not fun and not cureable.  I’ve learned to work through it.  Battling pain that puts me in the fetal position more that 8 days of the month.  Ibprofen has become my best friend! 🙂  Besides fighting this for the last 6 years, I find out last week that I might have tumors or cancer in my uterus.  WOW fun right?!  I’m having surgery again.  This has been a huge burden for me.  I’ve been saving for the last 6 months so my almost 4 year old daughter would have an amazing Christmas, now guess what….yep that money has to pay the doctor & the hospital…isn’t life wonderful?!  None of my students know, and neither does my daughter or other members of the family.  I’m good at hiding the pain after 6 years.  Hopefully I can hide it for a little longer, at least until I know for sure what the future may hold.

et cetera